Whats the point to try to reach for something or someone that's just going to let you down..
Where's my truth to believe..?
Where's my life to long for..?
No trust I want to believe deep in my bones, not anymore. Don't want to feel the pain almost tear my heart out..
Why did I go back to that someone with a trust so deep that I could'nt reach it my self.. Insted I fall to the ground and let the fear, pain, anger and my tears feed om my mistake...
Now I feel more emptier than before if eaven possibel..
IF there is someone out there for me..., well my heart does not feel like a heart anymore.. It's to broken... I don't know how much I can take and I do know that I usually do the biggest mistakes..
And I guess that's mostly how my life will be..
Just so dark and lonely..
Scared to take another chance..
Frightened to get up from bed every day..
And just seeing the worst in everything and on everyone..
Not living my life like a should to..
Why does my feelings eaven bother to let me feel..?
My future seems to be like a torture, as cold as the snow on a inicents soul...
